Hey, I'm back at school. I'm feeling much better now, but I'm not looking forward to all the homework I have to do... >.< And I'm not looking forward to seeing Arawen today... I've heard that in order to see her, I better have a death wish (AKA I'm gonna be dead by the time she's through with me). Not that I don't want to die, but I don't want Arawen to kill me!! I'd much rather die in my sleep or something peaceful!! Anything is better than school...

What happens if you get a perfect score on the SAT's your freshman or sophomore or junior year? Will they let you graduate early? Will you get into a better college that way????? Please?? I hate high school!! The peers are soo incredibly negative all the time, I've yet to meet a handful of people who are optimists!! The boys walk around with their pants sagged halfway down their butts, and I have to say that that is one of the least attractive things I have ever seen a boy wear!! Ever!!! And how can you be comfortable by sitting on top of the lining of your pants!?

Some of the boys also walk around with their cd players blaring loud loud loud music with a bazillion swear words and whatnot... some listen to Eminem... did I mention how much I hate Eminem??? I do!!!!! What is wrong with all the girls who think he's hot!? He's not!! He isn't a decent person, definitely not someone I'd want to be friends with, let alone married to!! Geez, he sure makes a rotten first impression, and the next impressions keep getting worse and worse! I DARE you to find me five things that are good about them (that aren't countered by bad things, like his songs. For example, you can't say anything about his wife or girlfriend or whatever, 'cuz his music disses women. See? It's kinda like an oxymoron).

Anyway, back to the subject...

The girls in the school wear the skimpiest things imagineable, and I'm sick of seeing them walk around with short short short short short short short shorts and thin thin thin thin thin straps of cloth on their shoulders, or even none at all. Some walk around with their bellybuttons showing, some wear WAY too much jewellery, some wear OVERLY TOO much makeup, and some have piercings all up and down their ears. How ugly! Who wants to see a girl with so much junk on her body?

They also walk around swearing, too; but I've noticed that that is mostly the girls who are always with guys, or the "popular" girls, if you catch my drift. I'm tired of all the slander and all the filth this school has to offer. Note to self: Get Rich So My Children Can Go To A Private School. Maybe then they won't have to experience all this.

Okay, I'm done ranting about the students. Now it's time for the teachers. Oy, this is one of my favorite subjects to rant and complain about!!

First of all, they give WAY too much homework. How can people other than those who have excellent study habits keep up? So in a way, high school has already doomed most of us to failure.

The tests are horrid. Most times, I have more than one test in the same day; how am I supposed to retain information for them all?? How am I supposed to concentrate that long? How am I supposed to make sure I understand everything? How do I know that I'm studying the right thing?

Late work. Most teachers don't allow it. This is dumb, and I hate that rule.

I also hate it when the teacher is obviously not enjoying what they're teaching. If they're not enjoying it, how are we supposed to enjoy it? If they're teaching it in an unbearably boring and uncomprehensive style, how are we supposed to pay attention or keep from sleeping?? And the million dollar question: WHY THE HECK DO I NEED SO MANY SUBJECTS IN SCHOOL IF I DON'T WANT TO STUDY HALF OF THEM?? Why do I need them if I don't? They say that you need things such as Algebra, Chemistry, English... Sure, if you want to have a job somewhere in one of those areas! I want to be a mom! Therefore, I need home ec! But of course, they don't offer that. Dumb school system...

I know that you need a bit of math, science can't hurt, and English is definitely something that everyone needs, but once you get to the point where you have to know what x is when y=293847.3987+692.8j*sin, what's the point? When you have to know who made up the different atomic theories, what's the point? Oh yes, I'm going to worship those who made up the theories, for they are mighty because they were scientists and they knew a lot of stuff. When you have to know how Shakespeare felt when he wrote Romeo and Juliet, or how this passage of this book is related to this passage of this other book, or the motiffs of stories, what is the point? Why will I need to know that? I mean, once I learn it, it'll be in my head until finals come around, then I'll forget it. WOW. Big lotta help it did me there.

My theory is this: If the teachers could somehow become their own students (with them teaching... kinda like they made clones of themselves) and they integrated themselves into the student body, and had to hear themselves teach, had to do their own load of homework, had to do everything we have to do, they'd all end up comitting suicide, killing the teachers (themselves), going mad, or crying under all the pressure.

I could ramble about that more, but I think I should get back to the overall point...

Okay, so we have a lot to deal with at school. Yet our parents (at least mine anyway) don't get what the heck is happening. Well, here it is:

I have been asked to smoke before, several times. Every time by someone I didn't know.
I have been asked to do some... erm... inappropriate things before with people I didn't know.

That isn't all, but I don't want to list anymore.

My parents don't seem to understand that times have changed since they went to school... it's a lot harder to be a student, put up with the peers, put up with the homework, put up with the teachers, put up with the tests, put up with the parents, put up with the chores, put up with all the other things that happen in life... And they wonder why I get bad grades sometimes. Hmm... maybe because I-Can't-Concentrate? Maybe it's because I have too much to worry about? Does any of that ring a bell?

Okay. Sorry about that. I didn't intend for this post to be nearly that long... gomen...

I wonder what would happen if everyone in the world was an optimist?

~Aerin-chan

"Merry Christmas."